Я честно скажу, я так не рыдал даже над клипом anaapenas, где Дин умирает. Здесь - 5 минут идеально связанных кадров, настолько шикарно, что забываешь, что это фанвидео. Почти готов поверить, что это канон. Мне понадобилась доза флаффных фанфиков, чтоб хоть как-то реабилитироваться.
Концовка - контрольный в голову. "I am only what you made me, I am a reflection of you" - это настолько Кас-2014, что просто сердце на куски.
2) Фик. Для всех более или менее англоговорящих (фик читается достаточно легко), у кого вместе со мной болит в этом сезоне сердце за Динокас. Этот фик - просто бальзам на душу. Влюбленный по уши Дин и его Кастиэль.
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lafleurdumal85 - Change My World
"It never occurred to me that I was lonely. I didn’t even know what loneliness was until… Until you showed me what it isn’t. Dean, you were just supposed to be another mission. I pulled you from Hell because it was for the greater good, and I never thought…” He laughs softly. “I suppose I was arrogant. I didn’t think I had anything left to learn. But then you happened, and you were the single most frustrating creature I had ever encountered, and you didn’t understand what I wanted from you, and you fought everything, even though you were stupid to fight, because you cared so terribly much. I couldn’t imagine that kind of strength, and… Dean, do you know how terrifying it is to begin to question the things you have blindly believed in since the beginning of time? I was so angry with you for doing that to me, and part of me wished that I could go back, but… but you drew me in. And I started to care too. I started to feel. It scared me. I wasn’t supposed to question things; that was a human curse. Angels were supposed to be above it. And then, after this body was no longer shared with another, I… I started to want things. For myself. I started to want you. I didn’t understand how I wanted you at first, but… but I couldn’t leave you. I knew I would follow you until the end, whatever that might be. I started to feel like… Dean, do you remember in Spongebob Squarepants where Patrick says that when Spongebob isn’t around, all he does is wait for him to come back? Well, that’s how it got for me. Time was… divided into time spent with you and time spent alone, and all I could think when I was alone was how much I was looking forward to the next time I could be with you. Dean, I’d held your soul in my hands, I’d pieced you back together, and you weren’t perfect, but that’s exactly why I… why I… And you couldn’t see how beautiful you were. You couldn’t understand how you could never let me down. Not really. As long as you continued to believe. As long as you didn’t end up as I once was. Your soul was… it was more precious to me than anything else. And it hurt me that you had been so ready to throw it away."